So I'm laying at home last night, having talked to several family members who've been sick with colds, etc. Normal for this time of year I guess. I take a deep breath and just enjoy for a moment the fact that I can breath normally. I stretch out and enjoy that for the moment I'm not in any real pain. I know that I rarely take a moment and just realize that I'm ok. Take that moment a step farther and become thankful that I'm ok. I don't think we are very mindful of ourselves and our situations until there is some issue, some problem, that asserts itself into our consciousness and demands our attention. Having experienced pain so intense that I could barely function perhaps has caused a certain mindfulness for me. I am aware of my condition and grateful for it. I still have issues for sure, my weight, my hip, but for the moment I feel good and I thank God for that.
In other news I had a great Thanksgiving. For the first time in many years I didn't work or have to prepare for a long workday on "Black Friday" and could just hang out with my family and enjoy the day. I am certainly enjoying not working the part time job, although I haven't done any thing productive with my extra time yet. I'm still concerned about my budget, but I'll get through.
I'm still taking baby steps on the path of healing, but I'm feeling optimistic right now, and honestly, that in itself is an improvement for me.
I hate dealing with doctors and their staff. I can even get past waiting FOREVER for results etc but just don't tell me (over and over and over) you're going to do something then not do it.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the mindfullness. I get lost in my own issues way too often and forget that in the grand scheme of things I have it pretty good.
Glad to see you posting 😊